July is just all around a sucky month and this last week has just piled things on. Nothing big....but the little things add up.
- I managed to get a bunch of water all over my new floor. I should have been more careful, but I forgot I had hooked up a water line and didn't put a shut off valve on it. Damage was minimal, but I still know it happened.
- My favorite drill has a bit stuck in it and I can't get it out. I have to use my other drill now and I just don't like it.
-This is my last week off and I don't feel like I'm any farther ahead...I actually am further behind.
-Malea isn't in a good place.
-Keagan has been really crabby and mean to everyone (except me).
I was out mowing the lawn - which give me lots of time to think. I was just thinking how I should have said thank you every time he mowed the lawn. I waited too long to mow it and the mower kept dying. It looks better at least.
I had a phone interview for a job and I don't think it went well. I'm not sure if I want to move where the job is - but I kind of want to. I just don't know if I can handle a new job - I'm not the most friendly person and moving to a new job I don't know if it would help. The therapist thinks it would be really good for Malea to get a fresh start - maybe help her move forward.
I just feel like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum. I don't want to figure all of these things out. I'm exhausted and tired of trying to please everyone. I feel like I'm screwing everything up. I feel like just saying - I'm staying where I am - but that isn't working out well. I guess I can just suck it up and deal with staying stuck. I just don't know.....sometimes I just want to give up.....guess it is good little people are counting on me....and being a people pleaser - I'm always going to try not to let them down.
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)