I feel like I'm in limbo. I've been here so many times in my life - but this is truly the worst. We've been here before, but when you have someone to be there with you - it is much easier to navigate. We could talk about our frustrations and just lean on each other. Dave was always the glass half full type most of the time. He rarely ever stressed about things. It would always annoy me how laid back he was when I was pulling my hair out. It really worked for us though - I stressed out enough for the both of us. It was nice that he would always just believe that everything was going to work out. I miss having him here to calm me down. He would tell me to quit worrying as there was nothing I could do about it anyway. That is very true now - and I always jump to conclusions and think the worst is going to happen. Most of the time he was right and things worked out just fine for us.
I keep trying to think that everything will work out in the end. It is really hard right now. Everything is starting to fall apart. I'm having to come up with plan B's right and left to just hang on. I guess it is good that I have a plan B option - but that is soon to run out as well :( I don't have a plan C option. Unfortunately my Plan B is only for me and doesn't help the others that are waiting in the wings for this deal to go through :(
I am still working out and trying to stay on top of things. I haven't been able to add in an additional day back in - so I'm at 2-3 days per week. I've missed a few Saturdays because I just needed more sleep. My son has decided that I'm not allowed to take naps - so a sleep in day is the only way that I get caught up. I know that is supposed to be not the right way to do things - but that works for me.
I'm working on trying to rent out my old house. I've only had 2 showings so renting is going to be the best way to go for me. It gets me out of having to pay the utilities at least and cover at least some of my mortgage. I am hoping to be ready Nov. 1st - but I have to get an inspection and have some electrical work that needs to be done first. I might have to go a little later than that. I still have a few things there - but that won't take much longer. I also have some trim to get in there. I do have to figure out what I'm going to do with the truck. I don't really have a lot of extra places to park things at my new house. I hope to build a garage or pole barn in the next year - but that is another thing that has to wait on my Sturgis house to sell.
Keagan is doing really well in school. He didn't do so well on his reading test - but I'm not sure why. I don't know many other 2nd graders - but I really think he's doing very well. Malea was a good reader - but not very confident in 2nd grade. She wouldn't read out loud much and didn't read everything she saw. Keagan does both of those - so I actually think he is a little ahead of where she was in 2nd grade in regards to reading. She tested well though and he doesn't test as well. So - I need to figure out how to work on that.
Malea is doing ok. Her mental state is still really good. She's always talking to friends online and that is a huge move forward. She is doing better in school - but has started slacking the last 2 weeks and I'm struggling to know what is turned in and what is not. I'm working on getting access to more things so that I can keep track better. I hope someday I don't have to constantly hound her. My Mom never had to monitor my work - she wouldn't have been able to keep up with it! I bought paint for her room 2 weeks ago and have been waiting for her room to be clean so I could paint. It has not been as bad as her old room, but she still has so much in the garage that she doesn't have a ton of things to make it messy at this point. I'd like to get it painted so I can get some more stuff hung up and off the floor.
I have created a calendar and have been putting jobs on there for the kids every day. Most days it is working out ok. Some days no matter how much I hound them - they don't do them :( Yesterday was one of those days. I added twice as many jobs for them for today - so we'll see how that goes. I started giving them the job of emptying one box from the garage per day. If we each empty one every day - we should have the garage emptied by December:)
I've been missing Dave so much lately and really struggling doing so much on my own. Malea has had a lot of appointments lately and these are different than all of the appointments from the last year. These are for fixing actual problems with her that they have determined :( Nobody seems to have appointments after 3:30 - so that is a lot more running for me. Next week I found someone to help out - which is awesome. I still have to leave work early 2 days though. At least now it is only about 45 mintues and not 2 hours.
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)