Malea is really struggling. She's been doing so well. She's more engaged with other people and just overall fairly happy. The last few days have been tough. We still don't know what is wrong with her back - all tests that have been performed have come out normal. She's still in a lot of pain though. She has become used to being in pain at this point, so she doesn't complain too much about it. She does get irritated when other people say that their back hurts. I've been guilty of that - but I am still in pain - I've had back issues for a long time.
Right now she is struggling with how much her Dad isn't going to be around and how much she needs him. She watched a bunch of videos of Dad's walking their daughters down the aisle. She was up that night crying. I didn't know this until yesterday. I told her to come wake me up if she's having a rough night. She came in and woke me up last night. She cried for a while and finally fell asleep. Both kids slept with me - while I slept in the middle of my bed. It was a rough night for me - but for them to both feel safe - I can lose some sleep.
She never talks much about Dave and doesn't like other people to bring him up. I think now that she's doing so much better - some stuff is hitting her hard. To top it off - people at school are being mean to her. I hate middle schoolers. Why do they have to be so mean? Seriously...who just goes around saying mean stuff to people. Why do they think that is ok? She says it isn't one specific person - it is a group of people. I asked her if she wanted to talk to the counselor about it and she said no. She said she can't get an entire group in trouble because then the innocent people would go after her. I really hate this. Isn't it bad enough that she lost her Dad. Now she has all this other crap to deal with as well. I really want to go yell at these kids and tell them to just be nice. If you can't say anything nice - don't say it at all. I don't know how to help her get through this. I know how much words hurt.
Oh how I wish I could fix this for my kids. I wish I could tell them that everything will be ok.
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