Today marks the remembrance of a tragic day in history. It is certainly one of the few major events that I remember in my lifetime. The only other major event I remember other than 9/11 is when the space shuttle blew up when we were watching it in school. Malea said that they talked about it in school - which I love since she wasn't born yet - but it is definitely something that needs to be talked about. Keagan didn't know anything about today. I'm sure for his age - some parents may not want to discuss it still. I talked to him about it and showed him so pictures. He's so compassionate that he was really interested. I wouldn't be surprised if he becomes interested in history, like his Dad.
As I thought of today - I was thinking about my own life. I've been in a pretty down mood most of the day. I started thinking about my life and how it feels in some ways history is repeating itself - at least in some aspects.
It started in 1998 - horrible year for me. I moved to Sturgis and was friendless, jobless and completely dependent on my parents. I was supposed to be completely independent at that point but instead I was in a really dark place. I had pretty much given up on life at that point. I didn't think I would amount to anything. I had absolutely no goals and just couldn't think of what I wanted to do with my life. Of course - that was the year I met Dave. It all went up from there. He was exactly what I needed. He gave me purpose - he pushed me and gave me everything that I have now.
Here I am 17 years later in pretty much the same place. At least I have a job - but I still feel like I'm completely dependent on my parents. Only now I have two little people completely dependent on me. They give my life purpose and they make me want to try to reach for the stars so that they can be their best. I still feel pretty worthless - you would have thought I would have figured things out 17 years ago. I guess I probably was supposed to learn something....but I missed that.
I really hope that if I do come out of this in a positive direction that history does not repeat itself again.
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)