Someone posted this picture today and oh how true it is. I feel like I'm no longer here. I go on every day acting the same as I always have. I'm still the chauffeur, the maid, the handy man, the mean Mom that I was before. I'm just even more of those things....that is really all I am. I have no other place in life other than to be those things. My kids no longer have the fun parent...he's gone. The person that would stick for me and back me up is no longer there :(
Everyone says this will get easier. I don't know how that is possible - my responsibilities will not lessen - they will increase with time until the kids are on their own. Sure - I could hire some things out - but likely I won't for the every day tasks. I have to do them myself - I can't always rely on paying someone to do them. I just wasn't raised that way. I'm capable....just overwhelmed! Is there a pill for that? Maybe so....
Winter is coming - and while I hate the cold - I don't have to look outside and see all the yard work that needs to be done. I will hire out my driveway to be plowed - that is one thing I'm not willing to do. Our snow blower is a piece of crap and I don't have the time to spend hours out there shoveling snow. I will just shovel enough to allow us to get the mail. Praying for a light snow winter:)
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)