It is really annoying how grief works. These lows that come in really make you question everything. You can't help feeling them and working through them. Sometimes they last a very short while and other times they last quite a while - weeks even. This last low for me lasted about 2 weeks. Nothing really brought it on that I can think of...
Health wise - I'm really quite a mess right now. Mentally though - yesterday I started feeling ok. My sinuses were killing me and my back still hurts a lot. I called in to work and slept most of the day away. I started feeling ok around 2 pm. I caught up on a few shows and then finally brushed my hair and put makeup on. I went to pick up Malea from school and then walked to get Keagan. I actually ran halfway there.
I wish I could be in this place I am right now all the time - I'm more productive this way. I feel like I can do this - I can be there for me kids and we'll be ok. I even cleaned my kitchen for an hour and a half last night. My house has really suffered this last year - and has been the worst this last month. I just had no motivation to do much other than laundry and dishes - because those are necessary.
Hoping that this weekend will go well. I have so much planned! Of course that is if I can manage through all this pain. I'm actually in less pain when I'm moving - or laying down. Sitting is killing me.
Hope everyone has a great Friday!
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)