I have now had 3 dreams with Dave in them.
The first dream I had right after he died. I dreamt that he came back and I was freaking out that I had started all these processes and let everyone know that he died and I was going to have to figure out how to undo everything. He just laughed but somehow I knew in the dream that it wasn't true.
The second dream started out similar to the first in that I was freaking out. We went everywhere - we went and saw his brother and some of his friends. I don't remember the kids being in any of these dreams. Somehow we both just knew that this was the end. I had felt like this was him actually saying Goodbye to everyone. He just held me and I just cried and said how much this completely sucks. He agreed with me and just held me. I had felt like he was telling me that I would be ok, but that it wasn't the way it should have been. For some reason this dream portrayed everything he was. He loved me and knew that it was hard, but also basically assured me that this was just how it was. That is what he would have told me - anytime something happened - he just always assured me it would be ok. I felt like that was what he was doing - even though it completely sucks.
I had not had a dream with him in it since that one (which was probably in June). I did dream of him last night. I don't know what we did in the beginning of the dream - we went somewhere on a family trip (I was thinking yesterday that I really miss those weekend getaways we had). Then we stopped somewhere to eat - which of course we always did. We had a problem with the tip...I remember the bill being 26.42 - not sure where we ate or anything - but that was the total. I remember for some reason not being able to add the tip on at the register - so I went and put $5 on the table. He was paying and ended up leaving a $5 tip as well. We just laughed and said oh well....he always did tend to over tip. I remember we had sent the kids to the car because they were annoying us. I somehow went to the bathroom as well and he ended up coming in there and there were a ton bunch of men in the women's bathroom - I don't get that part of the dream at all - I know he laughed at that - and had touched my head over the stall when he first came in (the were really short stalls). This was a strange part of the dream - because it didn't have anything to do with this - other than make the kids wait in the car longer. We went out to the car and the kids were running around the car - but getting along (totally know it is a dream when this happens). We then went to the car and started driving my hand. We started talking quietly about this being our last trip and the last time the kids would see him. He took my hand and then I woke up :( I really tried to go back to sleep to see him again, but couldn't :(
I really don't know what dreams mean or how people feel about them- but these totally felt like him being there for me and telling me I'm doing ok and will be ok. These 2 dreams especially just seemed so real.
I asked the kids if they have had any dreams and they haven't. Malea only says that she has had dreams that she's watching Dave get in the car accident and she calls out to him, but he doesn't hear her :(
Missing him so much - but I really appreciate these little visits. Makes me still feel like he's out there still loving me.
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