Christmas has always been one of my favorite times of the year. I love the lights and how everyone just seems happier through the season. I love the extra baking. I especially love hosting at my house. This year I won't be home for Christmas and this will be the first year we aren't spending Christmas morning at home. Dave and I decided once we had kids that we wanted to be home on Christmas. It was a really nice tradition. The last 2 years we were still home - but it has never been the same.
I do feel better this Christmas. I do miss him shopping with me and I'm glad this year that I am not doing gifts for my kids so I don't have to shop for them without him.
I love Hallmark movies but I don't know why I subject myself to them. They make me realize more how much I miss having someone to love me. I do hope that someday I'll have that again. They have plenty of widow stories on hallmark even - but of course everyone on the shows is so pretty and if they have kids they are these perfect kids. I love my kids but they definitely aren't perfect. I've spoiled them and they've been through a lot that it would be hard to relate to them. They are doing better but I don't know that Malea would ever be open to having a male figure in her life again. Keagan would love it and I really love to have a male rold model for him. I've love someone to talk to about my kids - just someone to tell me that I'm doing too much - or that I'm doing a good job. I know I've said that before. I've had people tell me that I'm doing a good job - but they don't see me every day - they only hear about things once in a while. I don't share all of our happy times or our worst times. Someday I'd just love to be taken out to dinner. I know that invovles me somehow meeting someone. I keep hoping that some single guy will come to my gym. So far - mostly couples work out there - or really young people. So - I'm not sure that will happen. Plus - nobody really talks there - we just work out.
We are so looking forward to our trip. We can't wait for sun and beach life. I was hoping to lose more weight before my trip - but this season of awesome food has not helped me with that. I have been working out more and eating a little better - but it isn't enough to see much progress. I saw myself in a video the other day and man - I looked like a cow :( I thought I had lost some weight but it definitely doesn't look like it. I really need to do something major - I'm just not sure what it will take.
I hope everyone has a great Christmas. I plan to take lots of pictures and post them when we get back ;)
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)