This week has been a busy week...but a successful week. It was conference week. I never used to worry, but for the last couple years - I have dreaded going. It always goes well...but without Dave there - I always think they are going to tell me how horrible I am and how I need to make them focus more or something.
That is not how it went though. Monday was Keagan's conferences. I can tell by how he reads and the papers that come home that he is doing fine. He didn't get Meets Expectations in a few areas, so I started to get worried. His teacher said that he is doing just fine. He struggles with writing - always had. He really just hates writing. She said that he gets his work done and is testing fine so she isn't worried. She didn't lecture me about his homework not getting done or him being behind in AR books. I'm doing the best I can. I really want to get him reading more...he reads a lot, but could definitely read more. He still needs some help though - so I have to be home to sit down and read with him. Overall though - I'm very pleased with him. It is nice having a teacher that knew him in Kindergarten (not his main teacher) and knows how much he's grown in 2 years. He's on the right track and I love that. She really helped me realize that he needed glasses as well. She's a great teacher.
Malea's conferences were tonight. I wasn't dreading these as much as I did last year. They went very well. She still has a few grades that could definitely improve. She's completely capable - but I think it is more than just her grades. 3 of her teachers she has had in some capacity over the last 2 years. 2 of them she only had for exploratories so they didn't see her much. They still said that they can definitely see a difference. They can see that she's engaging with her classmates and overall just more there. She had one teacher last year all year and has him again. She did pretty decent in his class last year - and is doing fine this year as well. He said that he's really impressed with her this year though. She does not seem to be able to work well in the quiet though. Last year she was allowed to have her phone and always had music in. Her teachers never minded. One of her teachers this year thinks that her work actually suffers from not having that. She has worked in the hallway in that class where it is louder and got so much more accomplished. Most of her other classes are on the louder side. The classes that have more distractions - she's getting better grades in. That is quite interesting and I'm not sure how to help with this. I actually don't like the quiet either. If it is too quiet - I just want to sleep. I have always had to have the tv on or something while I'm doing my work. I can read in the quiet - but that is about the only thing I can do in the quiet. With Malea I think it is a coping mechanism....having the quiet makes her think more and it is better to not think about it too much. This is a good thing - too much quiet for me is not good and I know that. I can't dwell on it for long or it doesn't end up very good for me.
I know that grades are important and she has 5 high school classes out of 7 this year. I wasn't expecting that and didn't know that until after school started. I hate that she'll have almost a year's worth of credits already going in to 9th grade. I don't want her graduating early. However - with her teachers saying how much better they can see that she is doing makes me feel so good. Her therapist also said the same thing. It makes me angry that the Dr. made us both feel like we were doing such a bad job. I now feel better like I was feeling before we went to the Dr. It has made Malea feel better. The Dr. visit set us both back but now I think we are moving forward again. It really had set Malea back ...and I didn't help since I ended up crying at the office. I kept telling her after that that I was so proud of her and that she's been doing so well. I now have the proof from the school as well. I'm going to continue to celebrate that.
The other day we were talking about Trolls and I said that Malea reminded me of Branch (sorry if I'm spoiling anything here...). He had a death that he felt responsible for and wasn't like the other trolls. He had to find something that made him happy and then he could sing and dance again. Malea said that she hasn't found her happy yet. I think she's right - she hasn't found that something to make her go forward. I had the kids and that made me know I had to move whether I wanted to or not. Malea is slowly finding her way. She will never be like other teenagers - she's been through so much. I try to do as much as I can - but I know I can't be everything. I just pray that she finds her happy. It might not come this year - but I know it will come eventually. For now there will be small things and small advances that I will celebrate.
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