Last week sometime ( I think Friday night) I had a dream. Dave was in it. I don't remember the first part. I just remember him being away and me being mad at him and then him laying with me. He had his arms around me and we were just lying there on the floor. I was like I'm glad you came back or something. He said - I'm still going away. I got up and started screaming at him and was like - what? He said he was moving to Florida and got a job there. I kept yelling at him. I told him how much him being away has affected our daughter. I was like - Keagan is fine, and I will manage, but Malea is lost. He didn't care :( I was so so mad at him!!!
I really felt like after I woke up that I had been screaming in my sleep. James said that I had not been, but man was I fuming.
Then James told me something - he said I had a dream about Dave and Dan (Dave's brother). He said we were chaperoning a trip for Hannah. That is super strange - but whatever. There weren't a lot details but James said at the end of the dream that Dave told him "Take care of her (meaning me)".
Seriously this is all so Dave. He would have wanted me to be mad at him so that I could keep moving forward or something I guess. Maybe let him go as some say. He couldn't leave it there though. He had to make sure that someone was there to take care of me.
I know that some might think this is completely crazy. However this was the first dream I've had in a long time of him and it also left me so angry. No dreams of him have ever left me angry like that. Then with what James told me though - so Dave. I feel like it proves so much that he loved me so much and really helped bring James in to my life.
It makes me cry just typing this.
I am a wife and mother of 2. I have many different interests - baking, home renovations, music, education ;)